Post Published: August 31, 2023
Originally posted to Facebook August31, 2018
Guys, I think a lot – everyday – about my integrity and mortality. Gonna die one day. Want as many of days before that to be lived in truth, my truth, and with some sort of honor. It’s hard to always be of your word but I like to think a solid effort counts, and I think you can tell when and where that effort exists. Also, I don’t want to be too hard on myself. I am hella sensitive. But what are words? Just another of the many things we imagined in the collective. What of our beliefs?
The other night before bed, I almost understood the concept of individual souls returning to the one soul at the end of their journey, but then it eluded me – again. I’m starting to wonder if all the things I get worked up about, like politics, and fair treatment, and other people’s judgements and suffering – do those things even matter at all?
If we are all actual soul matter right, engaged in a human experience, couldn’t it be that we all chose to come here and do our own thing and that we are experiencing the ride we bought our own tickets and paid for? Could it be that we each (and collectively) already know what we’re doing, that we each chose these paths, and that none of this is quite real so all the inconsistency and lies and madness are par for the course and OK?
Look I don’t know. I’m not convinced that morality isn’t important, even if everything is a simulation. I think being nice is the easiest and cheapest thing a person a can be. But I know it also takes work to build on that, to expand on compassion, to extend understanding, and honesty, and even further to be actionable. It’s a lot of work. I’m just trying to make sense of it as best I can.
PS – I have a ton of notes from this summer that I’ve been holding onto until Mars was done retrograding, so sometime in September my blog will be back in full force, with lots more of this kinda stuff, and I hope you’ll indulge me by sharing your responses to my musings. I don’t want to get lost in these think-cycles alone, thanks <3
Tell me what you think before we both die
