A hot and hopeful romantic, smart enough to be a pain in the ass.

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I’m a writer. This is a personal website with my ideas and real life experiences and creative expressions. I don’t mean harm. I mean encouragement, inspiration, and truth. Above all, I mean my own mental stability.  If anything on this website hurts your feelings in someway, you can send a message through social media and we can discuss it. Doesn’t mean I’ll remove my writing, but if you need space to talk I’ll give you that much. If I use a picture or artwork of yours and you want it removed, I’ll take it down. Other than that, don’t whine and bitch to me. I don’t really care. I encourage you to start your own project and find a way to express yourself that makes you feel good about yourself, truly good.

What Do You Want? 🤨 (It’s Not That Simple 🥺)

I want to feel strong and powerful and energetic and forceful again. I want to feel free and invincible. And...

the magical invisible

I can say that I […]...

The Loudest Lie

Once you've developed a recognition and a sort of safe familiarity with your own depression all you know for sure...

Be Free

I am loveable and also deserving of love. But equally so we're all deserving of honesty. ...

Your Body Is A Gift

My body, a gift. What an arbitrarily beautiful thing to say to someone. It's a beautiful notion, not even in...

a lot of personality to keep herself together

I’m fortunate, and I know that. I don’t have to suffer through a life I didn’t choose....

Proud of Me

Throw away perfect because that doesn't exist. I like to settle, yes, settle. I settle for good enough....

My Mother Did This To Me

I must overcome my want for love if I’m ever going to stop hurting. The solution is obviously to stop...

Life Is Pain

I was thirty-one when I decided success required being a fraud. But even fraud has its limits....

Throw her out.

She was living with Kevin and his parents. Her mother had put her out for refusing to end the pregnancy,...

It wasn’t Michelle’s problem that Brenda was starved for love and affection

It wasn’t Michelle’s problem that Brenda was starved for love and affection at home and needed the world’s approval. If...

Fabrication of A Hero

I want someone so disgustingly sexy that I, by proxy, elicit envy in other women. I want an accidental guru...

In What Ways Did You Feel Empty?

I don’t think I should still feel this way. Like sometimes when Kevin would lash out at me, I felt...

The Beerman

That's okay so I forgot you were a charmer, and nothing more than a showman...

Another night. Another dance.

She dropped her body, palms flattened, with her legs split on either and accidentally locked into the gaze of a...

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